went to isabelle's place yesterday. felt really down, and got influenced to try something new. started telling the truth. got isabelle really scared and got alson and jon mad at me. ah well.

i lay on belle's bed and the other two started to tickle me. i fell down and hit my knee against the bed post. there's a bruise on my knee nw. dad was so shocked when he saw it. just said i fell down.

started laughing then crying than laughing then crying. hallucinated abit. thought jon was someone else. and yea, like daniel said, it was a nightmare.

i must've been insane yesterday. yeesh. just wanted to apologize for calling all those people and blabbering some stuff. hope you guys wont hold it against me.

so anw, skipped lunch because me and jon were in no condition to go out for lunch. got hungry later and i went to splash my face with cold water. headed down to a shop and bought loads of snacks and cup noodles. stuffed ourselves silly. watched some roadrunner cartoons. i duno why i was the only one laughing -_-" the other two have got no SOH man.

played some truth or dare. got dared to do some stupid stuff. yeesh. after that jon had to meet his mom at orchard. ended up playing with tessie [belle's dog] for like, an hour. jon got really late so belle's dad gave him a lift there. on the way they dropped me off too. all in all i had a fantastic day. should really do it again sometime.

mom came back and showed me this month's copy of female [mag]. she was featured on thie before-and-after thing on pg 96.

i wish gab were here.

king herod is crazy. he's insanely selfish. when he was dying, he knew people wont mourn for him because.. well, he's not a very nice fella. he wanted his country to 'mourn for him', and so he ordered one person from each family to be killed. so yea, his country was filled with mourners. his selfishness is really insane. even the preacher for today said he was insane.

anw, had a fab time at jcc. de wonderful jon was late because he was up late talking to someone until 5am. and last night he still claimed he was the one who would be early and i was the one who'd be late. he got a nice surprise today. wound up missing youth and only went for the combined communion service today. and xiufeng was doing her maths homework during service. -_-"

its really cold tonight. i made use of the sweatshirt i got while in bali. okay i gotta go. till next time.

i got my phone. finally. its a panasonic. so if i lose the charger, i'm dead.

haiz, gab isnt home yet. i wanted to show her the phone. the phone's my christmas present from my parents. hey, i dont mind. alright, so i'm all alone again. my younger sister is nowhere to be seen.

sigh. seeyuh guys.

I'm so happy!! hahaz. My parents finally came home. And they gave me a hug.. Heez. I thought they forgot abt me. Now the house is much more lively with them home.

Anw, I just had the shock of my life. My mom told me that Joel sms-ed her phone asking for me. So I wanted to see the msg, and I switched on her phone cuz it was on low batt. And guess what was the welcome note. It was, "I will wait for you forever. I love you, ANGEL". And I was thinking. Was my dad nicknamed Angel? How cum it was so familiar?

It took me awhile to figure out what it was. I cant believe I didnt delete the welcome note when I was using that phone. Yeesh. I hope my mom didnt catch on that Angel's my ex. I mean, she knows about Aloysius, Cheng Fa and Daniel. If she adds another one to the list.. hoo boy..

Alright, so when they came home and saw me, my dad wished me Merry Christmas and gave me a hug. my mom looked up from what she was doing and said, "huh? oh, oh yea, its Christmas!" Lagging seh.. She just spent 5 hours at her friend's house singing christmas carols and counting down and she forgets its christmas in half an hour.

ahh.. joel is with *ahem*now!! i wanna go too.. =(

its 00:02am.

happy birthday, JESUS!

i was watching 'the ten commandments" on channel 5 before my grandma wanted to watch her show. someone was using the tv in the room, so i cant finish watching the show. =(

maybe i'll spend christmas in calvary baptish tmr. my younger sister's probably going too. i dunno.

today has been so dreary. have been spending all my time either in my room or in the living room. maybe i'll try to finish my homework. thats hitting two birds with one stone.

geez, no one's online. sigh. i think i'll go write in my journal or something. holidays are a drag.

okay, time flies freakin' fast. when i came into my room to stone, it was only 4. and now its already 6. christmas is in 4 days. geez, why is time passing so quickly. yea yea gab, the mind controls how fast time passes.. yaya..

dad wanted to take me to get my phone. but he asked when it was 2. yeesh. dont think i can get before next year. i'll stick with panasonic x400. i borrowed my sister's samsung phone and tried out the sms. i took about 5 mins to type one sms. yeesh.

i'm so freakin' bored.. i cant believe khuong is online. i mean, its 6pm over there in canada. and he's been online since 2am. doesnt that guy have to sleep?

well... i wanted to write some stuff down, but i think thats enough for today. tah.

gab got me a W.W.J.D. wristband. heez. its been something i've always wanted since.. urm.. last month? but anw, i like it alot. she bought two, one green and one purple. i chose the purple so she's wearing the green. yay, i'm so happy.

anw, havent been updating frequently and regularly because i've been updaing my other one. i dont really have many things to say anw.. although i can be a little long-winded at times.

my mom and dad asked today if i was certain i wanted a samsung phone. they told me a guy at a nokia shop said samsung phones were very difficult to sms with. so ya.. i know i want to try out samsung for a change. besides, nokia doesnt have a phone that i fancy, cept for 7200, but thats phased out. ah, decisions decisions.

mmmz, so gab got an mp3. i used to want one too. but gab gave me her old discman, so i guess i can make do with that one. besides, i am the one getting a new phone.

all i had today was a bowl of instant noodles and a piece of chicken pie. my grandad has this small party at our house with his Bible study group. they were having pot luck, and my grandma gave me and gab a slice of chicken pie. my grandad and his friends look very funny because they were young at heart, and all of them put on party hats. my grandma was laughing at my grandad, saying he looks like julius caesar because he has some sort of crown on. y'know, as the host or something, i reckon.

i'm going to make going to church every sunday a habit. i know, this may seem abit shocking, coming from someone who's been a christian since the day she was born. my parents arent strict about us going to church every sunday when we were young. they believed forcing us to go wasnt the solution and that we would develop a more personal relationship with Him at our own pace. so whenever i missed church my parenst wouldnt say anything. and i'd feel really guilty. am thinking of becoming a permanent member of JCC. i love that church so much. okay, i've been saying that for like, 5 times in 4 days.

oh ya, isabelle, if ure reading this, can i like, meet you at kovan station at 1230 to pass you your present?

i just gave xiu feng her christmas present yesterday. hugged her and wished her merry christmas. and when she opened her present.. ... the look on her face was so.. she looked so happy. she was smiling so widely and you could really feel her happiness. her smile makes everything i did for her worthwhile. its very encouraging and all, to see someone so appreciative of what you've got for him/her. its really.. ya.. it made me so happy too.

okay, i apologize for the unexpected uncivilised outburst. it is totally uncalled for. i dont think xiu feng and isabelle would be there anw. oh dear, i forgot, how am i gonna pass isabelle her present? i expect i can meet up with her one of these days, maybe to do out or something. i mean, she can go out right? if she can go out with ms donna she would be able to meet me..

and i'm still stumped on what to get for the guys. worse come to worse, i'll get them nothing. nah.. i should get them something..

and i've learnt to appreciate aircon. in bali its so freakin' hot. i mean, i tried to sun bathe, and i wince just thinking about it. the sun was scorching. and i mean scorching. i couldnt even sit on the deck chairs without placing a towel in between. 15mins of sun was all i could stand. i felt like i was bacon on a saucepan. i was perspiring like its nobody's business. i looked like i just came out of the pool and hadnt bothered to towel myself dry [actually, its not that exaggerated, but somewhat there].

i cant believe 4 days just passed like that. soon the holidays would be over. =( i dont know if i'm required to do the book review. its only for S3N(A) classes but you kinda have to pass it up when school reopens. oh well. i dont have to do it, but it'll help boost my overall marks for next year. but i still have my composition t worry about. i haven't even started on it yet.

nid to wrap christmas presents soon.. i dont have any nice wrapping paper.. nvm.. maybe my mom'd get..

I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THERE IS A CLASS PARTY AT HERITAGE VIEW AT6PM TONIGHT AND I'M STILL IN BALI!!!!

ARGH.. WHY CANT THEY HAVE IT TOMORROW.. WHY CANT MY DAD PICK A FLIGHT THATS IN THE MORNING SO I'LL REACH THERE IN TIME.. WHY CANT WE HAVE STAYED HOME AND FORGOTTEN THIS STUPID VACATION..

class parties mean alot to me cuz i'm going to a separate class from my friends and class parties would be the only way i can really spend time with all of them ... ...

i hate this stupid vacation..

heyy! you'd be thinking, why am i here when i'm supposed to be off enjoying myself in bali. well i am in bali. haha. didnt expect it huh.. i'm in this lounge and there were a couple of computers, so decided to update a little about today.

went to the airport at like, 7am. yea, i knw, crazy. my parents should've booked the afternoon flight. spent the two hours on the plane writing in my diary and watching abit of tv. den took a little nap. changi refreshed my mind with many memories.

the hotel is freakin' hot. and i bet the mosquitoes are enjoying themselves. at dinner i got bitten like, 6-7 times. i had lamb fillet.. haha. it was dee-lish.

there were 'musicians' playing some requests during dinner. they played 'you raise me up' by josh groban and another song i forgot. they came to our table and asked if we'd like to request a song. my dad requested two songs, one is 'hotel california' by the eagles. reminded me of justice and jon [wee]. they used to sing that song in school. they asked for our names, and when they heard what my name was, they sang this song entitled 'michelle'. i got ao malu. i never heard of that song before too.

gonna spend tmr in the gym/beach and sightseeing in the afternoon. sian. i hate sightseeing. you know, i'm the lazy type. but well, on the third day its gonna be beach and gym. is that the life or what?! i can get a tan here. the sun's purty hot so i'm counting on getting a good tan. i finished my book 'no sanctuary' and all i've got now is 'wuthering heights'. exciting. bleh. its isabelle's school library book. its used for literature so the words are gonna be pretty profound. oh wellz.

its a pity i cant log onto msn. i would fancy giving my friends a shock. okay.. i gotta go. hope i can use the net again tmr. seeyuh guys.

alright. am going off tmr, around the morning. we're reaching bali at 12 [but 11 for singapore], so i reckon we'd have to reach the airport really early. snooze.

dont miss me yea? hahaa. will only be gone for four days. bearable, yea? try la hor. and i'll try ta bring back presents. no promises though. haha. and when i come back, its the CHRISTMAS CARNIVAL! YEA, ZHI QIANG! haha.. okaaay.. i cant believe i typed that.. oh, if you're wondering who's zhi qiang, he's this really cute guy from xiu feng's church. and a drummer too. i dig drummers.

gonna be sad ta leave singapore, even though its only for four days. we'd probably be hanging out at the gym for the first day. i dont mind. and we'd also hang around the pool. and i can get a tan! haha. i hope the sun wont be a disappointment.

i woke up at about four last night cuz i had the runs. this morning too. thank God my stomach stayed quiet while i was in church. then when i came home my stomach started to disagree with me again. turns out my mom has the runs too. must be something we ate last night for dinner. but its weird how my father seems fine. my mom gave me four pills for that, and i hope tomorrow i'll be fine.

oh wellz, i guess that all i have to say. mmmz. i'll see you guys on friday then. ta.

spent the last hour and half cleaning my room. there was so much dust that now i'm having the sniffles. after everything i had like, 4 bags of rubbish. not really rubbish, paper. i didnt know i had so much trash in my room. i used to complain i didnt have enough space for my stuff, and after today i have like, 2 empty drawers. now i dont know what to do with the space. my mom came in and sat on my bed. she saw how clean my room was [finally] and she said i just made fifty dollars. i was gleaming, then i realised it was to pay off the hundred i borrowed for great world city.

mom got me a photo frame. so xiu feng's present is all done up nicely. really proud of it. but my mom charged me ten bucks for it cuz she likes the frame alot. hai. but its ok.. i can afford that. and i nid another frame for sherlyn's. so its like, i'm getting her in total three items. and when wrapped its gonna look purty big. i dont know if she'll like them too.. oh, woe is me.

and i'm stuck with alson, jon and gab's presents. for gab its easy. diary, cap or jacket. i thought of getting her a jacket, but when i saw the price i walked out of the shop. as for cap, where am i gonna find a white adidas cap? can i just get her a notebook, stick on the words 'gabby's journal' and be done with it.

i was ranting about how guys are so hard to get for in my other diary. again, i'm stuck with the dilemma of not knowing what to get them. oh well.

met jon and went to great world city today. did abit of christmas shopping and then met xiu feng for dinner at ikea. ah, i've just written a whole lot about today in my other diary. lazy to write here again. =D if you want to read go to my other diary. link's there. ta.

this is a story from isabelle's diary:

this is a story of two love birds, david and mary. they loved each other so much. david used to be a playboy, but when he was with mary, he decided to turn over a new leaf. as soon as they got together, david forgot the promises he made to himself.

on a bright saturday, they met. david asked her to join him to hang out with his friends. mary refused because she promised her friend to go to a party. they did not meet the next day.

they planned to meet on monday, but mary did not arrive. he went to look for her. he saw her in the arms of another guy. tears rolled down his cheeks. did he approach them? no.

he saw her happy smile while she was in that guy's arms. if that made her happy, then all he wanted was to just see her happy. as he turned to walk away, mary caught a glimpse of david. she pushed that guy away and ran toward david. she noticed david was struggling. when she reached for him, he was facing his back to her. she called out his name.

"david! i'm so sorry.. i really love you"
"i dont mind.. if being with him makes you happy.. then let it be. i just want to see you happy."
"but.. david! why is your hand bleeding?"

she confronted him. "david! what happened??" she said, shocked. blood was oozing out of his eyes.

"mary.. can you help me? just call an ambulance for me.. i decided to stop myself from having the gift of sight.. the last thing i ever got to see was your happy face.. that made me happy.. i just wish to keep that sight forever.."

y'know, i never once 'approved' of love forming between friends. i mean, see, unless you have a strong friendship with that person, after a break up, the friendship would either be strained or broken, especially if the partner is an all-or-nothing person. I've seen couples get together and break, and after that their previous friendship is greatly strained. i hate losing friends because of a hateful past. aloysius and i took like, one year to be on talking terms again. bensee? dont even talk about it. mark once told me bensee is an all-or-nothing guy. joshua is also something like him. i dont know.. i'd like to be friends with them again. but i guess with their present mentality its kind of impossible.

i was watching this drama on vcd for a short while. it really irks me to see that in every love drama people will be crying and shouting and screaming. its always the same storyline. there will always be two guys and one girl or two girls with one guy. dont mind me saying this, but no originality der.

but i saw the main character wearing this W.W.J.D. wrist band, and i like it alot. i wonder where i can find these kind of things. but now i have to concentrate on getting the christmas presents. tiong should really have a jigsaw shop. i could go there instead of going all the way to great world city. yeesh. oh well. ta.

um, i nid to find a way to get $100 by friday. not that its my deadline, but i'm going to great world city to get a couple of presents. and at the same time i think i can fit in time for a movie and lunch. maybe window shopping too. i'll be going with jon [again]. he wanted to go out and i needed a companion to get presents with me. for convenience's sake i would rather get everything early and not wait until the last minute.

i'm in love.

i'm in love with the n6260 but everyone says its lousy because their friends have it. oh well. gab told me to get n7200 so i went to nokia.com to see. yea, well, its probably the nicest phone apart from n6260 [in my opinion] so i decided to ask if i could get that instead. my mom said i was an expensive girl and my dad asked to see it. i couldnt find it and he said alright. so i dont know which one i'm getting.

i hope i get one with tri-band so i wont feel so lost when i'm going to bali this month. i hope our clique [or something] can meet up to go to east coast beach for some fun and present exchanging. i still want to tan. i'm as fair as a mole rat next to jon sher and gab. i can also use that day to teach xiu feng and sherlyn rollerblading. hoping xiu feng and isabelle make it.

the tutor in the study thinger had given us a sheet of paper to fill in the amount of hours we spend on this and that, and she'll tell us individually what's wrong with your time mangement. y'know, the typical stuff. there was a question asking what i wanted more time doing. i wrote that i wanted more time to spend with my friends cause i was afraid we'd drift away. she actually laughed at that. i knitted my brows and looked away from her.

then she asked me how i study at home. i said i nid to be with other people who are also studying. that way i wont talk and be focused on my work. i added in that i'm planning to get together with my friend [was talking about jon] since he studies in the hols too. i said he was intelligent and i could ask him questions. the first thing she said was, "your boyfriend ar?" i wapped my forehead and said no immediately. she looked at me, and asked, "then? who is he to you?" i decided to diam not argue. people who arent clear about my relationship with jon always jump to the conclusion that we're together. its always that same conclusion.

i get peeved whenever someone says he's my boyfriend. i mean, havent they heard about two people of the different sex being good friends? well in my case he's my best friend. i know all that yadda yadda yadda that lovers usually come from best friends, but come on.

anw, today's a sad, sad day. i wont be able to think on the bus home while i blast my music anymore. thats when i get really focused on my thoughts in spite of the music blaring in my ear. today's the second last day and i haven't even drawn up my timetable!! i'm probably digging my own grave.

christmas is coming and no job! wa.. i'm in for trouble this year.. why?? why me??